#i ...gotta go follow up on some posts now...

[arodabi]

100% everything on this post, people were so vile that i get all shaky and cold sweats whenever i gotta talk about my identity to someone irl STILL bc deep down im scared they’ll turn on me.

Personal discourse anecdote:

I followed an aspec positivity blog in 2015 that would routinely get attacked and harassed so eventually they gave the blog to somebody else and retreated back to their main. I followed them there and realized they were somebody i actually went to high school with. They were a year under me and i never talked to them in person about it bc who wants a stranger coming up to you asking about your tumblr blog.

Anyways over the course of a year i watched them fall into being an ace exclusionist, just as vile as all the rest of them. I unfollowed obvi but i would see them all the time going after mutuals and saying nasty things in aspec tags. I remember them harassing ppl with hivliving if that tells you anything. It was horrible to see somebody who spent time defending us fall like that.

After i graduated i saw that they were made my ex high schools gsa president. They would make snide posts abt it from time to time but eventually they made a post that was basically “some acey came up to me and asked what we were doing for ace week or whatever. I just laughed in their face, why would we do anything for virgin week?” A friend of mine who used to know them screenshotted all of their ani ace posts and reported them to the high school. They then got kicked out of the gsa. They were sooooo mad too, blamed all the butthurt cringe aceys bc they didn’t actually kno who had reported them lol

Anyways, i think about this a lot. I kno that person is still out there, my friend gives me updates on them from time to time. I think it shows that as much as people liked to say this was just an online thing, it wasn’t that big of deal, the people who were doing this online were also the ones participating in irl queer spaces too, sometimes with authority. I’m glad it’s a lot better now but the blogs who screenshotted my post to call me mentally ill for being aro in front of their thousands of followers are still posting and popular. They just know to be quiet about aspec ppl for now. We cannot let them ever feel comfortable expressing that shit again bc i kno they didn’t actually change their mind.

I don't think younger/newer users fully grasp the shit show that ace discourse was around 2014-17

It was so hostile that, to this day, discussions that begin to derail just enough can make me physically nauseous, some specific mockery trigger crying sessions years later. We lost most accounts with any sort of ace positivity. There was no information, no support, and all this damage was done predominantly by other queer people.

All this to say that you, however you identify yourself, should be engaging with aphobic comments the same way you do any hate. We don't sugarcoat or try to be comprehensive with people who are blatantly racist, homophobic or terfs, so why give it a pass just because it's coming from a queer person? I see how this tolerance goes and it's done enough damage as it is.

[junnieverse]

STRAWBERRY KISSES ➳ N. RIKI

➙ synopsis: you decided to hop on the latest trend where your boyfriend, riki, does your grwm voiceover, but he on the other hand has other plans in mind for you both.

pairing: non idol!nishimura riki x fem!reader

genre: fluff, crack, slightly suggestive

word count: 0.9k

warnings: briefly proofread, riki jokingly calling reader a thief/kleptomaniac

a/n: i would like to say i was inspired to write this with my own little spin after reading a jake fic similar to this awhile back that i found so cute, tysm to that author <3

“Yo yo yo, what’s up guys.” his deep voice croaks into the mic as he turns his gaze to you.

“Is this on?” Riki asks tilting his head to the side, whilst the video of your makeup routine was paused on the screen of the laptop.

You nod before giving him a thumbs up to get started.

You had been wanting to post more content on your social media lately and you thought joining along the whole “boyfriend voiceover” trend would be perfect for you and a fun activity for both you and your silly partner.

“Okay so my lovely girlfriend asked me to do the voiceover for her makeup ‘get ready with me’ video because for one, she’s obsessed with me- ow!” he groans rubbing his arm as he chuckles after cheekily after you swatted him seeing as he successfully teased you.

“I swear she loves me. And uh secondly, I have two sisters so I think I should do well knowing a thing or two about these kinds of stuff.” he continues with a confident smirk.

Clicking play on the video in front of you, you silently watch beside your boyfriend as he closely follows along, his eyebrows furrowing in confusion.

“I will never understand how and why she needs all of this stuff to begin with. I for one think my girlfriend is insanely beautiful the way she looks now, bare face and all. Like a cute kitten.” he rambles seemingly wanting to go on and on about how perfect you are—before you abruptly remind him of what he needs to be doing.

“Okay let me lock in, sorry. So first up we got moisturiser. Yep, gotta keep the skin hydrated ofcourse.” he says nodding along as you show your entire process, step-by-step.

“Next we’ve got… uh, some gel like clear substance..? Why are we adding goo to our faces now?” he mutters the last part with a deep chuckle into the mic as you side eye him.

“It’s primer Riki.” you whisper but still loud enough for the mic to catch.

“Tch, I knew that.” he sneakily remarks sticking his tongue out at you, only for you to roll your eyes in response.

For the most part your boyfriend knew what he was talking about which shocked you, but his overall confidence in his knowledge also annoyed you.

Although you could say the things he didn’t know did have you quietly laughing away from the mic a couple of times.

“Then that is some sort of make up stick? And we’re blending it in. Woah it made your jaw look sharper too. You’d swear you were mewing.” he says in awe of your contouring skills making you laugh softly, once again.

Watching you draw your eyeliner with the pencil with ease, Riki claps softly amazed by what he called “sheer talent”.

“This has to be the one of the very few products I’m most confident in and that’s the eyeliner. Any girl that can pull off making winged liner look so effortlessly straight has my respect. Shout out.”

“And then we’ve got… THATS BLUSH! I knew what that was!” he says excitedly with a proud smile having underestimated his prior knowledge for a second.

“Okay and now lipgloss. My personal favourite because I get to tas-“

“Riki!” you cut him off knowing exactly where he was going as you hit his arm once again.

“Okay okay my bad. God forbid a man talk about how he loves kissing his girl.” he huffs into the mic as the video continued rolling.

Shaking your head, you gently pinch his cheek making him pout as you smile, “focus on the video, oh my gosh.”

“And lastly we have… is that like some sort of mist? What is that? Wait don’t tell me I’ve seen you use it before- it’s… setting spray!” he answers almost last minute with a huff of relief for getting it right.

You then show off your final look to the camera posing with a gleaming smile to which your boyfriend smiles back.

“Damn look at that fine woman on screen, that’s my girl.” he says hyping you up as he whistles.

“Wait is that my necklace- chat I’ve been looking for that everyone and she’s been hoarding it, you slick thief.” he gasps in shock noticing the silver chain around your neck, which you had previously claimed to not have seen.

Giggling softly you only shrug avoiding his gaze as he only shakes his head not really upset at you, “oopsie~”

Paying his attention back to the video on screen, with his hand on his chest, Riki dramatically feigns being struck, “oh my gawd my girlfriend is the most beautiful woman out there… kleptomaniac and all.”

“I still don’t know why she needed the makeup in the first place since she looked beautiful even before but I’m not mad, either way you’re always pretty.” he says adding his last commentary saying the last part directly to you.

You quietly thank him mouthing out the words with a shy smile feeling flattered.

“Okay so that was my princess’ ‘get ready with me’ slash makeup routine, whatever you guys wanna call it. Hope you guys enjoyed listening to my sexy voice that she is so blessed to hear everyday. I’m gonna go see what flavour lip gloss my girl used this time, fingers crossed it’s my favourite.”

Giggling at his words, you watch Riki turn the mic and laptop off as he scoops you into his arms before gently placing you down on the bed.

Caging you between as arms as he hovers above you, he leans down to kiss you as you melt into his intoxicating touch enjoying the moment all too much before he pulls away leaving you confused.

“Strawberry? Nice.” he remarks at the taste of your lips before your wrap your arms around his neck pulling him back in for more.

[cheezeeflowerboi]

This post is in response to this hilarious post by @paracosm-draw that really got me thinking: 

At first, I was gonna be like, "Daddy, chill ✋" at the use of the big W slur but I have to admit, you gotta point. (I actually couldn't stop generating ideas after. Sorry this went from a short comment to a long ass post.) All of this big brained thinking had me creating some kind of waist kink(?) I don't know, man, but here yall go.

Morning after, Anakin sleepily gets up to get some water/coffee. Obi-Wan follows him into the kitchen, grabs him by the waist, and tugs him over from behind before planting little neck kisses on him. Breakfast is forgotten in the morning after say gex. 

18th century AU(I'm addicted to these). A ball is held between the kingdoms of Stewjon or Coruscant and Naboo. Let's say they're both guards of the royal families. The ball is becoming wild, people of all sorts of origins and status are pairing up. Thick, patterned fabric is swirling around everywhere encompassing almost every inch of the dance floor. 

Obi-Wan and Anakin just kind of gravitate towards one another. The castle already quadrupled security--there's no need for them here. They get to flirting a bit and Obi-Wan asks for a dance. Anakin is definitely the more devilish dance companion but Obi-Wan is bolder in terms of courtship. Like everything else, they turn it into a competition for who can ~out flirt~ the other whilst dancing. This of course leads to Obi-Wan's hands almost never leaving Anakin's waist, hands, or neck and Anakin's Dip(dance move) kink. 

They probably sneak away from the royal ball, find some royal broom closet and royally rail each other there. 

Jealousy AU I don't know how to go into detail for this because I’m too flustered. Let's go with The Clone Wars timeline. Disagreement on the field between Obi-Wan and Anakin pushes them apart but only for like a day or two. They're on some crazy planet the council assigned them to go to. Duh, duh, duh, yada, yada. 

Anakin starts flirting with this person, glances at Obi-Wan, and smirks. Obi-Wan politely finishes up negotiations before promptly going over to Anakin, telling him it's time to leave, and hooking a rather possessive arm around his waist. On the ship, Obi-Wan and Anakin get into this big bitch fight, Anakin’s like, “You can't be serious. Are you actually jealous?!” which obviously leads to Obi-Wan turning his head to the side and responding with, “Perhaps.” Anakin’s kind of confused at first, then he gets over it. You can choose who’s bent over the table, but I think Anakin just kinda shrugged and went for it after that.

Starfighter setting. They’re under attack (somewhere) and Obi-Wan and Anakin get in their separate starfighters. Think of the beginning of ROTS. Something happens to Obi-Wan’s starfighter causing him to crash on some nearby planet, I don't know. Anakin goes after him to make sure he's alright, which he is except for a bruise on his side and maybe a cut on his forehead.

This can go two ways. 

He’s fine but now he doesn't have a ride. Logically, he climbs in behind Anakin despite it not being made for two. The rest of the time is just them bumping around with Obi-Wan protectively keeping his arms encased around Anakin’s waist and Anakin desperately trying to focus with his master basically underneath him. 

Two kinks get unlocked here and it's waist kink(because we’ve officially made that a thing now, it's a thing now) and praise kink because while Obi-Wan has his hands wrapped around his waist, assumedly his mouth right next to his ear, he is also giving him praise for his good shots and piloting. As soon as they get back from the attack, Anakin flips over and fucks him nasty. Don't worry Obi-Wan was projecting his horniness through his praises. He was having a hard(pun intended) time too with Anakin being right there. 

The second way this can go is that Obi-Wan is not completely fine. He’s unconscious and knocked into a temporary coma. Anakin rage fights after that, using all sorts of probably malicious techniques because his master is injured and these bitches are keeping him from him??? Anyway, they get back, Obi-Wan’s in the hospital wing, Anakin stays by his side the whole time, and Obi-Wan wakes up later in the night. 

When he does, Anakin practically pounces on him. (Working unrealistic voodoo magic to make the injury make sense.) Because of the head injury, Obi-Wan’s inhibitions are super low, so when he sees Anakin the first move he makes is to grab his cute, slutty, tiny little waist and pull him closer. Anakin basically loses all thought as Obi-Wan starts stroking his waist and spouting praise and terms of endearment like a running faucet. After that, since he's pretty close to fine, they go back to their room in the temple and it's kind of like the first one except it's that night instead. 

That's all I have for now, but knowing myself I’ll probably reblog this later with more ideas. Congratulations for getting this far if you did! 

[hestzhyen]

Chapter 83 (Belated) Father's Day Posting

Yes I know it was last week but this chapter was intended to release that day, so... let's get into it, dear void.

Editor's notes: First Page: 座村に斬られ一度死んだチヒロが目を覚まし... [Samura ni kira re ichido shinda Chihiro ga me wo samashi...] "Chihiro wakes up after being killed by Samura..." Last Page: 明かされる7本目の宿命その力を示す刻が来た- [akasa reru 7-pon-me no shukumei sono chikara wo shimesu toki ga kita-] "The destiny of the 7th blade has been revealed. Now is the time to show it's power..."

Kunishige's Intentions and IRL Effects

Tell, don't show is actually okay in some situations like this!

And so we get... Enten's backstory! Awesome! I gotta say, Chihiro literally sinking into his memories of forging Enten with his father was gorgeous. Absolute 10/10 imagery and a huge reason I love reading this manga.

So once again we see another through-line from the past to the future. And another contrast between Kunishige and Samura. Both of them had massive regrets about the war haunting them, both of them looked towards the future through their children- then Samura faltered and was manipulated into retreating into his own head. He abandoned Iori and adopted an extremely myopic view of what needed to be done. Meanwhile Kunishige never lost sight of the light Chihiro cast for him to follow. Therefore Samura's ready to destroy himself to amend the past while Chihiro was given the power to reshape the future that the previous generation directed the younger one towards. Once again, I love this manga. I love it so, so much when we're focusing on the core themes.

It's the difference between two viewpoints: atoning for the past and improving the future. Both of them can look extremely similar from the outside since they're rooted in prior events. But atonement doesn't always guarantee a better future while looking forward at least opens up the possibility.

I mean, think about it. Saying "sorry we did that, let me fall on my sword as penance" doesn't do anything to help the future really. Samura's hellbent on killing the other Bearers to set them free from the contract before killing himself alongside the Sword Master. But what will that accomplish? Even if Samura succeeds, all he'll accomplish is dying and eliminating one potential source of another Malediction. It does nothing to solve the Kamunabi's corruption and propaganda issue, the lingering resentments of those who didn't believe that propaganda, nor do a damn thing to stop the Hishaku. The societal issues will still be completely unaffected. The nukes will still be around and available to be used by anyone who gets their hands on them. The only "positive" outcome is that Samura will get the death he feels he deserves.

Meanwhile, Kunishige tried to save the future by creating a sword that can undo all his other works. He made the ultimate nuclear disarmament tool by working with Chihiro! Sounds a hell of a lot better, doesn't it?

The implications of this are so, so clear: Samura, as the older generation who refused to involve the younger one, is doing what he thinks is best and telling the kids to sit down and shut up. He's going to do things his way and they can pick up the pieces once he's done. But Kunishige wanted to show Chihiro how to manage everything from the start. They worked together: Kunishige teaching Chihiro, Chihiro inspiring and guiding Kunishige. They made Enten together in order to secure a safer future. And doesn't that second scenario sound like a much better foundation than the prior one?

I feel like this is the author's voice coming through loud and clear: hey, adults, let us help you. Involve us. You don't have to carry that burden of what you did alone to try and spare us. We can handle it. And we need to know so we can actually make things better.

Remember, Hokazono's only 24 years old. And Japan's got some really touchy discussions over what and how much to teach the kids about what the country did during WWII going on. Even if it's not a direct or fully conscious thematic inclusion, it's still very much present this arc through Samura and Kunishige. And the author seems to be on the side of "stop only telling us what to do and involve us in the process". Very admirable and reasonable.

Disarmament is the way!

At any rate, all signs are now pointing towards Chihiro's mission being to break the blades. That's what he inherited from Kunishige; even if the sword wasn't especially forged for him to use, it's in his hands now and he's committed to taking it on. He'll pick up where his dad left off and see his vision through. The only necessary deaths are those of the blades... and the Hishaku.

The wrinkle of the Hishaku's exact role in all of this will probably complicate things for Chihiro's vengeance journey. Well, not "probably", but "definitely". It doesn't really affect what he's going to do with the blades though. It's clear that the best course for the future is to disarm the nukes and make sure they can't fall into the wrong hands again like what happened with Sojo. I'm incredibly glad that this is where the narrative went! I feel like the theme of undoing the wrongs of the past by directly addressing the root cause/issues instead of performative actions is the best possible way to look at this situation, both in fiction and IRL.

The nukes/swords aren't beings with agency that can act on their own for a particular cause. They can theoretically be stored away in safekeeping as some kind of implied threat to prevent another large-scale conflict. But as Kagurabachi makes clear -as the author is arguing- their mere presence is also an incentive for people to attain that power for their own ends. The "good guy with a gun to stop a bad guy with a gun" mindset breaks down when we're talking about weaponry that can cause mass deaths with ease. You don't stop nukes with more nukes. You can only get rid of them entirely.

I love it when Chihiro looks like the kid he really is.

Then why the hell are we cheering for Chihiro? Isn't he just a "good guy with a gun"? Yeah. But he's kind of the only true good guy with good reason to act in this situation. It's his own dad's legacy that he's trying to deal with AND he's trying to get rid of them, not just manage them. If he was trying to do the same thing Kunishige did at the start -only give them to skilled people he trusted- then it wouldn't be very clear if he was the right person for the job. But ever since the Sojo fight it's been obvious that Chihiro's got to be the one to do it. He was given the tool to dismantle the otherwise indestructible weapons, has the moral and familial imperative to do it, and clearly believes in carrying on his dad's wish to destroy them.

This will undoubtedly set him at odds with the Kamunabi down the path. Like any government, some of the the Kamunabi higher-ups will most likely want to keep them on-hand as that unspoken deterrent. Why destroy something that saved the nation once? That power could be needed again! Can't wait to see what happens with them after this arc... it also heavily depends on what Hakuri manages to do with the Shinuchi and what happens to him after. There's so much to look forward to once we're done with this fight!

The Fight, Though?

Okay that was a lot of yap. But what will happen to Samura? Poor misguided and insanely stubborn Samura, who just wants to do what he thinks is best for everyone?

Chancla to the face for not respecting one's elders.

For one, it's obvious by now that Chihiro won't be killing him. He's not some evil guy that needs to be put down like Sojo or Kyora. So what will happen? Well, the good outcome will probably be along the lines of Chihiro breaking Tobimune -proving his will is stronger than Samura's grief- then Iori talking to Samura and getting him to stand down.

After that, though... well, the pinky ring to signify the pact made between Samura and Yura was shown to us in chapter 59 for a reason. I have no doubt that if Samura must die then that will be what does him in. It would also be great motivation to keep Iori around and involved with Chihiro's quest. I don't know if I can handle Chihiro having to watch someone else get orphaned in almost the same way he was though.

Past vs. Future

As for the immediate circumstances, I'm pretty sure this fight with Samura won't go on too much longer. Chihiro's resolve is set and Samura's hand is starting to shake; he's feeling it now, Mr. Krabs. All those stunts he pulled off earlier are probably catching up with him- not looking so great for Mr. I Must Die Alone For Someone Else's Sins. Sorry Samura, but you ain't Jesus. You're just a mentally tortured war veteran, father, and widower.

First stop: breaking Tobimune, probably.

I also want to say something about Chihiro's resolve here. Again the official TL isn't bad by any means, but the formal tone of it didn't carry over very well.

この淵天を以って…俺 が真打を折る [kono enten wo motte... ore ga shinuchi wo oru] "I vow... to break the Shinuchi with the Enten." or something along those lines. Chihiro's not just making a statement here- he's making something of a solemn vow.

What About the Other Blades?

*Depending on where it is and who has it after this fight

Well, we can probably assume that Chihiro will try to break them as well since Kunishige explicitly wanted to destroy all of them after the war. How Chihiro manages to do that will be what keeps the story moving forward though.

As we know, the Hishaku are in possession of the two unknown blades still- and Kuguri's definitely got his eyes set on the Sushi bearer's. Meanwhile Hiruhiko's bonded to Kumeyuri but it's currently with Ro, who is allied to Samura and the Kamunabi. So Chihiro can ignore the other swords and make a beeline for the Sword Master once he's done with his business here at the hotel. It won't be so simple though- it never is when there's a set number of objects to seek out and destroy.

I have a feeling that there won't be much of a victory for Team Goldfish here.

Ch. 72

Chihiro's probably not going to want to kill the two Bearers still bound to the blade, so they will have to have their Eternal Contracts broken somehow before the Sword Master is dealt with. That means seeking them out and killing them or "killing" them with Tobimune's Suzaku ability. But if Tobimune breaks or Samura is killed, then that ability vanishes. Remember, Suzaku is Samura's True Realm ability- that's Tobimune responding to his strong desires. It won't necessarily work the same for someone else. So even if Iori or someone else is able to bond to the blade, they may not be able to use Suzaku.

Then there's the tidbit that the Eternal Contract itself needs the Sword Master to be alive, else the other bearers will die. This may well apply to Chihiro too.

Also ch. 72

Either Kunishige spent 15 years making a blade with a life-death contract independent of the Shinuchi, or he used the same binding technique and took his time on intentionally imbuing the blade with the ability to break the others. Maybe both, depends on Kunishige's idea about who would wield it and other intentions while he and Chihiro were making it. But for now, it's fair to assume that Chihiro could also be affected by the bond to the Shinuchi- and that's one of the big reasons why Samura went out of his way to kill him.

So the goal now must be to break the Shinuchi first. There's no other easy option to go for: killing and reviving the other Bearers is much less practical, especially when the Hishaku are waiting for exactly that to happen so they can have their own members bond to the other blades in their possession. That's a terrible outcome (and another very good reason to stop Samura). If Chihiro breaks Tobimune in this fight -which seems incredibly likely- then they really will have no other option.

This means that Hakuri and Uruha's situation is absolutely vital and likely won't result in something good for our protagonists. Hakuri's on his way to isolate the Shinuchi by putting it in his Storehouse... but whether he succeeds or fails will still be fine for the Hishaku. If he succeeds, he's now a primary capture/torture target that Chihiro will likely have to rescue. If he fails, then the Hishaku have the blade and will either kill The Sword Master or hand it to him- both very good ways of triggering another Malediction.

Basically, all signs are pointing towards Magatsumi remaining out of Chihiro's reach for the forseeable future. It's his goal to chase while dealing with other issues along the way in service of it.

As for Kumeyuri, I don't think it's getting broken here. Instead I think it will somehow end up back in the Hishaku's hands so Hiruhiko can train with it properly once he picks himself up. Hopefully without the Masumi making an exit from the story... please, let them live. It along with the other two blades will still have more time to shine before they're taken out and collected by Chihiro like Kuregumo was.

Okay. Sit tight and don't get too impatient. Try not to, at least. We're definitely coming up on the climax of this arc! See you next week, dear void.

[bebx]

While cat!Inho has been super cute and all, what if few weeks later,

Junho and gihun turned into dogs and now its inho's turn to take care of a husky and a golden retriever.

Im just imagining inho being absolutely covered in slobs from gihun or getting his stuff constantly chewed out by junho that he just wearing their clothes so that they will be less incline to chewing his pants.

Him finally having revenge for the laser pointer by buying few tennis balls, all he did was pull it out from the bag and suddenly gihun and junho getting super excited with their tails wagging that after they played few rounds of catch, they realize what inho was doing and just went to their respective corners and sulk for the rest of the day (they still bring their tennis balls to sulk with them)

The pink motel being super noisy since both of them can not shut the fuck up, a firetruck or ambulance drive by? They are both howling with the sirens. The mail man coming to deliver a package? Must be a intruder, gotta keep barking to scare them away. A bird or a cat near their territory? Gotta make them scram away. Inho is probably thanking the gods that they do not have neighbours or else they would have been instantly hit with a noise complaint.

Inho being forced to be outside majority of the day to help burn off the excess energy both of them have, gihun going absolutely wild running around all over the place being happy that he does not have any joint pain while junho gets to be as noisy as he wants just being the husky he is. [Of course they do not talk about the squirrel incident]

Some dogs are super clingy and i could imagine junho being one, inho's personal space is now HIS space so he is just constantly following inho everywhere, its like his own personal shadow. Inho felt nostalgic as he is being reminded of junho when he is a lot younger but that thought is quickly thrown out of the window when junho keeps trying to follow him into the bathroom.

I can see both of them basically turning into guard dogs who will not hesitate to bite anyone that comes near inho and see everything that moves as a threat. Inho probably bought a plushie for gihun once but gihun's dog brain sees it as a competition for inho's attention that he absolutely shreds the shit out of the plushie and only realize what he has done when he has a mouth full of cotton.

Sorry if this is super long winded but im just thinking the amount of possible funny moments that could happen with inho dealing with 2 dogs, its like putting a introvert together with 2 kinda extrovert people together. It also makes inho think that he was not that bad and should have cause more trouble when he was a cat because it feels like payback for what he put both of them through.

YESSSSSS. YES TO ALL OF THIS

Okay, okay, maybe I should write a sequel about this, after I finally post (I will eventually post it, I promise) that Cat! In-ho fic

[snickerdoodlles]

tumblr is hiding notifications from me, which is extremely rude because I wanted to see my friends roast me in tags >:TT

[onesnoopyaday]

I AM AT MY LIMIT

Snoopy #90

30/12/2024

description under the cut

[description: a cartoon-style drawing of Snoopy's head. Snoopy is a white dog with black ears. His eyes are shut and his mouth is a horizontal line. There are two large blue teardrops, one under each eye. The text "I am at my limit" is handwritten across the top of the image.]

[johnnyshrine]

★ 021 // “Anime Expo 2025 Artist Alley Acceptance”

[deoidesign]

Hello! I just discovered your blog and I immediately became captivated by your webcomic, but I'm unsure where to read all of it. I know it's on Webtoons, but I can see it hasn't been updated for a while, and you still post about it.

Are your physical novels just prints of the webcomic? Are they a continuation? Is the story complete? Thanks in advance!

Hi there!

Glad you found me and are enjoying my comic!

It's only on webtoons, and the story is not complete yet! We're 2/3 of the way through right now. It's currently on hiatus, and it's scheduled to come back in about 2 months!

I'll explain why it's been so long if you're curious, but also for my followers who might also be wondering about it under the cut. Sorry, it's pretty much just me complaining haha

I took a month off I took 2 months to get the books printed I took a month to prepare my next comic and I took 2 months to write the rest of the series (I knew the character arcs I wanted, but not the time periods or mysteries!!!) I've been working on actual episodes since then

I had to take some time off because of some pretty extreme burnout due to the sheer amount of work it was to draw over 800 pages and write 6 complete stories in a year and a half... I was getting sick almost weekly due to the overwork, it was really really bad honestly. I was having to work 60+ hours every week just to keep up...

The nature of the comic itself is also difficult... Each of the arcs is a complete, self contained story which can be read (ideally) without context, and my arcs need to be about 10-13 episodes each... And since I have an exact number of episodes to work with, it's even harder.

It takes a ton of planning and a ton of refinement, and working week to week with no breaks I was forced to put out second or even first drafts, so I just wasn't happy with the work I was doing... And to do that for the rest of the series? I wouldn't be proud of the work I did.

Plus... To be entirely honest, webtoon has treated me quite badly IN MY OPINION... They deprioritized me before I launched (I had to beg for more promotion, I'm not exaggerating), they outright denied me the opportunity to even ask for a raise, I don't make any money on fast pass and they pay me less than my partner makes working at trader joes. My first editor left me completely hanging, my second editor (who I loved) was fired... And they told me I wouldn't get a third season before my first season even finished. So it was just repeatedly completely demoralizing.

I'm sorry it has taken so long, it'll have been 10 months by the time I come back. But I realized... I won't get promotion either way. I won't get more episodes either way. I won't get more money either way. So to finish everything, to make it feel good, to make it something I'm proud of, I chose to take longer to make it better.

I am fully aware I will lose a significant amount of my readership for this and it might genuinely affect my career moving forward. But it's what I had to do! So I'm sticking to my guns on it, and I'm confident long term it'll be worth it. It never could have been this good if I didn't take this much time.

[rotteneyed]

i hate how i find these comfort zones in art and i stay there because just stepping one foot outside is scary af. this happened with destiny and i tried getting out of it multiple times but it was scary and i was convinced that if i started drawing anything else but destiny people would jump ship (haha) and i would have to start from 0.

now it happened with bg3, i have been drawing art for that game for 2 years and i got used to it and it's nice and safe, the difference is that I know I can draw other stuff and my art will find it's audience, and the people that follow me enjoy my art not whatever i was obsessed with drawing at that moment.

BUT still, i now spent 2 weeks agonizing over my kcd art because i am not used to draw this stuff maybe i am just insecure idk but i need to keep doing this again and again until it goes away. i get so stressed drawing things for the first time, that i then immediately go back to drawing whatever was safe and comfortable and if you go to my art blog you can see it. i was drawing lucanis and it was my first artwork for dragon age so i was stressed out of my mind. and okay i drew lucanis again and then davrin and then i immediately went back to bg3 because that was scary and i want to go back to wherever was comfy and safe. THIS NEEDS TO STOP my art is shit because of this and i dont mean it isn't pretty or it's bad, no it's not that, i know its "good" but it lacks inspiration, it has no soul it's content it's not art.

[aestheticallynotdeerlightful]

I’ve been a fan of tmnt for so long that’s so deep within my core that hardly anyone knows about until something gets me to start yapping which has happened a lot recently so I can feel the fixation dragging me back in

I’m just surprised it took this long

[kaiasky]

listen up chucklefucks, i just gotta say. I'm not defending zir, but I'm sad zie deactivated. Like, i get that trauma lasts a long time and the good stuff is maybe easy to forget?? so maybe it's just like that. And my beloved mutual @/pompeyspuppygirl made a post about zir clout chasing behavior, which is pretty shitty behavior if it's true (and if we're canceling someone it had better be pretty severe). anyways now that zie's gone pompeyspuppygirl said it was okay to make this post (again, thanks ppg everyone go follow her--really everyone in this whole drama is worth a follow)

ANYways yeah zie was my mutual and like, reblogged a lot my smaller posts. (that isn't to discredit what my mutual pompeyspuppygirl is saying about zie clout chasing ofc). AND idk zie was always reblogging art from new and undiscovered artists and reblogging donation posts (which if you don't know is really bad if you're trying to clout chase...) (again, though, ppg is my mutual i believe her.) and like, remember on valentines day i tried to blaze zir posts and zie told me to stop because zie didn't want the posts to go viral? (but again ppg is my mutual and has a lot of proof in the Google doc I'm not trying to disprove that I'm just saying what else I know)

Idk, like i feel like a lot of people loved zir's blog a while back, bc like zie DID make some good posts?? So idk why everybody's acting like they aren't even a little bit sad.,. like ngl this feels like maybe all the reasonable people left to Twitter and all the Twitter refugees who love drama came here??? shdfhhdhdhdhdh haha but idk...look idk, i just, julie i do miss you. idk. more thoughts later sorry I'm getting worked up shshs

[meadowscarlet]

MONACO MAGIC | OP81

✩ — summary: oscar was known as the nonchalant mysterious guy who’s never been loud about his life—private and subtle he is—until monaco ‘25 happened.

✩ — oscar piastri x fem!reader

✩ — author’s note: kinda wanna make another oscar smau for barcelona gp just so i have an excuse to connect it w my club fcb lmfao

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f1gossippofficial RARE PDA: F1’s most private star Oscar Piastri seen getting close with stunning woman in Monaco!

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random IS THIS SHIT REALLY HAPPENING RIGHT NOW

random OSCAR PIASTRI??? HOLDING HANDS??? IN PUBLIC??????

random i don’t think i’ve seen him willingly stay near a woman ever since he joined the grid 😭

random bye i don’t think i’ve seen him near a woman ever period

random PIASTRI U HAVE A CHAMPIONSHIP TO WIN

random bro lowk already did… sources says she’s gorgeous 🧘🏻‍♀️

random they gotta reveal who she is

random kinda scared some crazy fangirls might attack her

random we’re witnessing a new oscar piastri era and im here for it

random dating an f1 driver in his “prime” in monaco… she’s def a gold digger

random oh baby you’re so weird

random WHO IS SHE

random just from the back i can tell she’s insanely beautiful 😩

random oscar rlly said “let me just ruin the internet real quick”

random just wait until he hard launches her 😭

random 5 days before the monaco gp and oscar has the opportunity to do the funniest thing ever

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f1 Rolling up to #F1TheMovie! 🤩 Our drivers have arrived for their private screening 💫

#F1 #Formula1

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random THE LAST SLIDE WHAT THE HELLLLLL

random why are they wearing their merch 💀

random OSCAR BROUGHT HIS MYSTERY GIRL TO THE PRIVATE SCREENING IM GENUINELY SCREAMING RIGHT NOW

random 😭😭😭😭 saw this first in the morning and was gagged by how gorgeous his girl is

random oscar piastri i was not familiar with your game

random f1 hard launched oscar and his gf before he did im in tears

random I FOUND OSCAR’S GF @youruser she looks like an angel 😭🩷 what a princess

random ya’ll so quick w it the fuckkshshaha

random monaco ‘25 oscar what have u planned for us this weekend…

random i can’t wait to see y/n in the paddock 😣

random that clip on twitter of oscar holding her hand was so cute that man was not letting her go cuties 😭

random this is the most smiling oscar i’ve ever seen

random girl i think we’re about to get used to it starting now..

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youruser 🌸🌸💞💞🌸🌸💓💓

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random she went from 3k followers to 200k in one day how insane 😭

random this is her latest post, 4 days ago, and we’re all here bc of that one user who found her ig 😭

random girl i just stalked oscar’s followings after f1 posted her LMFOAJSWJJWHAH

oscarpiastri the prettiest ❤️

* ♥ by author

youruser thank u handsome ☺️

random EEEKKKK THEY’RE SO CUTE BYE

random fuck my single boring life 😭

random #need me a nonchalant man who’s only chalant to #me i feel sick

random scrolled through her posts and oscar’s always liking and commenting on it 😭 man is whipped asffff

random if u were my gf i’d be all over you too

random you are literally angel personified awh 😭

youruser you’re so sweet ☺️💗

random SO BEAUTIFUL

youruser haha thank u! 💖

random pink suits you so much 🥰🥹

youruser mwah ty angel 🥲🩷

random her replying to most replies she’s so adorable

random how did she bag THE oscar piastri…

random how did oscar piastri bag HER… let’s start asking the real questions here

hattiepiastri i missed u so much

youruser meet up soon? 😚

hattiepiastri YES

random awww her relationship with hattie 😭🫶🏼

random basically confirmed that they’ve been dating for a while. oscar choosing this time to finally reveal her is a crazy smart move 🙂‍↕️

bff1 my beautiful girl is famous don’t forget about me 😢💔

youruser i would never 😠 ily

random queen did u like the f1 movie

youruser haha 🤐

random GIRLSHSHHWHDHS

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mclaren your starting duo for the #MonacoGP 🇲🇨 Lando takes POLE as OP81 secures a second-row seat 💪🏼 impressive work boys!

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youruser 🥐🧡☺️

random Y/NNNNN

random the emojis 😭😭😭

random hi y/nnnn 😍😍💕💕💕

random our queen

random pls attend the race tomorrowwww

random mclaren domination could never bore me

random this is basically the result for tomorrow’s race already

random both cooked 🔥

random WE ARE READY

random i pray for mclaren’s pit stops everyday

youruser has added to their story!

oscarpiastri replied to your story: wish you were here

youruser tomorrow! :)

oscarpiastri are you sure you want to baby? i know everything could be overwhelming

youruser osc i’ve been sure since i agreed to publicize our relationship this week and i want to fully support you without worrying about anything ❤️

oscarpiastri i love you so much

oscarpiastri replied to your story: you deserve everything good baby 🥰

youruser my sweet boy i love uuuuu

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ynlovebot she understood the assignment 😍 Y/N makes her first official appearance in the Monaco gp wearing a customized Mclaren beaded dress!

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random GODDESS

random the dress OH MY GODDD she matched the car. THE CAR. girl you didn’t have to go that hard 😭🔥

random princess of monaco confirmed

random the dress, the hair, the aura, she’s perfect

random oscar’s huge grin when he walked in the paddock with her 😭🫶🏼

random he hasn’t stopped smiling since 😭

random no because the fact that oscar piastri’s first public girlfriend reveal is in MONACO??? he’s so real for that

random bless Monaco 2025 🙏🏼

random oh this mclaren princess

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oscarpiastri Monaco ‘25 just became a national holiday

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random the first slide im gagged we’ve been WAITING FOR THIS MOMENT.

random i just know he has been wanting to post her all over his feed 😭

* ♥ by author

random this hug is now my roman empire goodnight

random p3 baby y/n is his lucky charm 😭 we demand to see her in every race

random i’d podium too if she hugged me like that i fear

mclaren spectacular drive from OP81 🥐💪🏼

random MCLAREN USING Y/N’S SIGNATURE EMOJI HAHAHAHAH

random y/n saying i love you when oscar jogged up to her 😭😭😭 fawkkk

random and him hugging her so tight to the point her feet were not touching the ground THEYRE THE CUTEST

random the way his whole face changes when he looks at her.. my stomach

youruser monaco magic 🪄🧚🏻‍♀️

oscarpiastri where it all started 😘

random WAIT WHAT THE FCUK

random HE’S DROPPING SOME RANDOM LORE

random what if they got together when oscar moved to monaco 😭

random that would make this whole thing more adorable i love them bad

charles_leclerc 🔥🔥🔥

random another home race podium our consistent king

quadlock the fresh prince of Monaco 💙

random barcelona next prince 🏆🇦🇺🐨

random lessgooo wdc leader 🫡

random Awwww yall so cute…ᵃⁿⁿᵃᵇᵉˡˡᵉ ᵍᵉᵗ ᵗʰᵉᵐ

random BITCHDHEHSH😭😭😭😭

[starboundsingularities]

good lird they did not make a gimmick blog about a real life murder

#someone fucking DIED but whatever who gives a shit it's funny i guess

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🥚 eggvidenced Follow

honestly with how suspicious and confusing everything on the dl-6 case was i wouldn't be surprised if it came out that it was that prosecutor guy tbh

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date posted: june 23, 2010

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⚖️ courtofpublicopinions Follow

🌟 rockliker270 Follow

ok hear me out. what abt winston payne though

🧊 just--ice Follow

okay now they're just making lawyers up

#also didn't mvk die or something?

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🔥 triedbyfire Follow

why the fuck are you people still posting about the gavinners as if theyre not copaganda. didn't the guitarist get convicted of murder

🎸 guiltiest-lovers837 Follow

so fucking tired of this "um um didn't daryan get convicted of murder" YEAH AND HE'S LITERALLY NOT IN THE FUCKING BAND ANYMORE. dipshit

🔥 triedbyfire Follow

are you gonna address the copaganda thing or

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🌻 attorneybout Follow

he's so. 😳

📂 trialanderror Follow

why is he defending

📂 trialanderror Follow

OP WHY IS HE DEFENDING???

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🦈 giantlakemonsters Follow

i just wanna hear about another gourdy sighting thats all

🥜 liberdeez Follow

op. i'm so sorry op. gourdy isn't real you have to let her go. they had a whole trial about it.

🔐 wrightorwrong Follow

hi!! so this isn't actually the case as while gourdy was briefly mentioned in a trial, said trial had nothing to do with whether or not gourdy was "real" per se as much as. well. murder, actually. while gourdy WAS found out to be an inflatable steel samurai this was not brought up in the case at all as the veracity of gourdy wasn't really as relevant as the fact that the witness was looking for gourdy rather than at the murder she claimed to have seen. plus this was also a relatively small part of a MUCH larger trial which for those interested not only solved the dl-6 case but ALSO marked the end of prosecutor von karma's ~40 year long record and the court records are really a fascinating read through!!

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net 0 information post

#thanks again lawblr

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🍒 cherriescoola Follow

btw i was at the park the other day and klavier gavin (of gavinners fame) was there and obv there was a huge crowd but this guy was there with him and at some point he (the other guy) waved to the crowd and someone still screamed like it was klavier??? who was that guy ive never seen him before in my life

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December 28, 2016

YES!!!

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🪙 tellerlikeitis Follow

guys help i'm a bank teller and this guy just introduced himself as robin banks what do i do

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you gotta let him rob you that's the law

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👻 ghostesswiththemostest Follow

look if i ever get convicted of murder im just hiring the lawyer with the coolest sounding name

💼 courtofwaw Follow

bestie if you already got convicted it is Too Late

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📋 lawandwhoreder Follow

guys i know it's real fun to think people just can predict whatever but if you look at the earliest reblogs of that post that "guessed" the true killer in the dl-6 case it was actually a post about how they didn't want to go to the store. clearly edited

#stg nobody bothers to factcheck anything anymore

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🐺 lawnewolf Follow

i am NOT homophobic or whatever the fuck you guys are saying now i just think its weird to write fanfiction about realass people?? go touch grass ffs

🌈 lawsbian Follow

the fun police (this guy) putting me in yaoi court but the lawyers (phoenix witrght and miles edgeworth) just keep trying to make out (real court is like this too btw)

🐺 lawnewolf Follow

YOU HAVE SOMETHING WRONG WITH YOU.

#look idc what your enemies to lovers fic bullshit says #they're straight. and more importantly REAL PEOPLE. #there's TENSION because they are in COURT and there are LIVES on the LINE. #not because they wanna fuck. god.

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🔮 inhighspirits Follow

why dont they just ask the spirit mediums to ask the victims who killed them this law shit is easy

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💞 lawveyourself Follow

seriously i cant believe they gave this guy a law degree

💞 lawveyourself Follow

what do you mean evidence fraud

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🎧 instrumentalillness Follow

fuck you *unguilties your love*

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🎀 copiicat Follow

perjury isnt illegal btw in fact if youre one of tge witnesses youre legally required to lie on the stand. thats why everyone does it. trust me

[witchbitchlovesdilfs]

Hurt in the Workplace

Jack Abbot x reader

status: dating

synopsis: reader gets attacked by a patient, and jack is there to help.

warnings: reader is technically gender neutral (minus one predominately feminine derogatory word), language (i love to curse), violence, slight suggestive content, drugs

words: 1.6k

note: this is my first posted story. i hope you like it!

The Pitt had been hectic since your shift started. Myrna was back hassling Robby, another ambulance got stolen, and you somehow managed to get hit by every door you passed. After seven hours on your feet without more than a sip of coffee, your scrubs felt tight as hell, and the granola bar you managed to sneak a few bites of tasted like shit. If it weren’t for your co-workers - your friends - your family, you would have snatched one of Dana’s cigarettes and gone for a smoke, never to come back. 

Jack Abbot knew you well enough by now to know when you were struggling. I mean, you’d hope so - you’ve been dating for two years. His apartment was now your apartment; your conditioner was now his. And you’ve gotta admit - his curls have never looked bouncier. So when you pass him at the nurse’s desk while grumbling about annoying patients and wishing you were in bed, he grabs you by the arm and leads you to the break room. You don’t put up a fight, not when it’s Jack. So you let him usher you into the space with little more than a sigh.

“You want some coffee?” You ask, going over to the counter to pour yourself a cup. He nods, and you start to pour a second.

“What’s wrong?”

There he is, always straight to the point.

You huff and lean your back against the counter. You hand him his cup and take a sip from your own, delaying your answer. “Nothing, just tired.”

“You did stay up late watching tv.”

A crooked grin graces your lips. “You know I love my true crime. Can’t get enough.”

At the smile on your face, Jack cracks his own - just slightly, but enough for you to notice. He shifts his feet. You notice that too.

“How’s your leg?” You ask.

He flexes at the thought of it. “Sore.”

“I’ll massage it later,” you smile, reaching into the fridge and pulling out an ice pack. You toss it his way, and he catches it effortlessly. “Be a good boy and ice it, and maybe I’ll give you a full body massage when we get home.” You wink, and Jack shakes his head at you, but he gives in. Easing his way into one of the chairs, Jack watches you put your cup down.

“I won’t pull a Shen and say the “Q” word,” he starts, “but we’re through the thick of it.” 

Despite his attempt at reassuring you, you still feel sick with anxiety. There’s a bad feeling in your gut, like something’s going to happen. Five hours left, you think.

You nod and begin to head back into the ER, patting him briefly on the shoulder. “Love you,” you call over your shoulder before the door shuts behind you. 

Three hours later, you’re chilling at the nurse’s desk when Whitaker asks for your help in one of the exam rooms. Rolling your shoulders, you say bye to Perlah and Princess and follow him down the hall. Before you reach the room, Whitaker stops you, all big eyed and anxious. This isn’t anything new, but it sets off alarms in your head. 

“He’s here for a cut on his finger. I already stitched it up, but he keeps asking for morphine.”

You catch on immediately. “You think he hurt himself so he can get drugs.”

He nods. “He’s shaking and sweating profusely. And he’s getting irritable.”

It’s your time to nod. “I’m sure he is - you just told him he can’t have his daily dose.” Moving forward, you near the exam room and push the curtain open to reveal a middle aged man nursing his finger like it’s been chopped off. 

“Hi, I’m Dr. L/N,” you say, hopping onto a sliding stool and sliding towards the patient. “Dr. Whitaker here told me you cut yourself.” You take his finger in your hand, “He did a great job.” You turn to smile at Whitaker. He smiles back, pleased. “So,” you continue, “everything looks good. We should be able to send you home in a few minutes.”

The man’s forehead scrunches at this. “Don’t you need to give me some morphine?”

Your eyebrow quirks upward. “I’m sorry?”

He shrugs, totally disregarding the shock in your expression as he picks at the stitches. “It hurts.”

I can tell by the way you’re manhandling it, you think tiredly. “Look…I’m sorry, you never told me your name?”

“It’s Andrew Smith,” Whitaker pipes up, oh-so-dutifully.

Smith, how original. You nod, not turning from the patient. “Okay. Mr.  Smith. I’m sorry, but there is no reason for us to give you morphine at this time.”

“Well, I want it. Ain’t that a good reason?”

Keep cool. Don’t explode. “Again, I’m sorry, but we can’t give anyone morphine just because they want it.” He starts to speak, probably to complain again, but you cut him off. “I’m a Senior Emergency Resident. I know when to apply morphine, but this is not the case. The best I can do is offer that you get some Advil or Tylenol.”

“Bitch,” the man grumbles, but you ignore it (visibly. Inside, you are seething). 

You can feel the anticipation radiating off of Whitaker at this exchange. You do your best to keep your cool. “Dr. Whitaker never told me how you cut your finger.”

Mr. Smith huffs like you’re interrupting his time. “I don’t know, I was cutting some carrots and the knife slipped or something.” 

“You don’t know, or the knife slipped?”

“I said I was cutting onions,” he growls. 

You raise your hands in front of yourself slowly, victorious but now on edge. “I’m sorry,” you say for the hundredth time. “No need to get hostile.”

He slumps backwards onto the pillow. “Nobody’s getting hostile.”

You turn to Whitaker, and he looks equally triumphant. You’ve caught the man lying. Now all you’ve got to do is get him the hell out of your ER.

“Well,” you say, rubbing your hands together, “like I said, there is nothing more we can do for you. Keep the cut site clean and dry for the first twenty-four hours, and then you can start cleaning with soap and water. They should be healed in about six days.” You turn again to face Whitaker when you feel it: a sharp pain between your chest and left armpit. A sharp cry escapes you as the patient yanks the stitch scissors out of your back and jumps on you from behind, throwing you to the ground. 

“Get Ahmad!” You yell to Whitaker, who’s already dashing out into the hall. Mr. Smith tries to stab you again, but you grab his hand with both of yours and use all of your strength to keep the blades away. His fist finds your face in a brutal left look, and you’re seeing stars as the scissors gain on you. Before any more damage can be done, Ahmad smashes into your assaulter’s side and sends him flying. Backing as far away from the two as you can, you try to calm your rapid breathing. 

As Ahmad gets the man into cuffs and shoves him out of the room, you move your hand to feel for the stab wound. Your fingers graze it, and you wince, cursing. Your hand comes back bloody.

Someone else runs into the room. Abbot. You could recognise that silver hair and serious face anywhere, even with a vision as blurred as yours is right now. 

“Hey,” he says softly, crouching quickly and taking your face in his big hands. “Tell me where it hurts.”

“He stabbed me,” you croak out, motioning to your back. 

Jack turns you gently to check out the wound, pulling up your scrubs. He lets out a sigh of relief. “It’s superficial.”

You visibly relax. “Good thing he found with the dullest weapon here.”

Jack nods and helps you onto the patient bed. He lifts your scrub top again, this time adjusting it so it won’t fall back down when he lets go. Plopping onto the sliding stool, Abbot moves to one of the cabinets and pulls out the necessary clean-up tools. He wipes at the spot with disinfectant, his hands falling away as he takes a fresh needle to stitch you with. “Sharp pinch,” he says before starting. You laugh, but that is quickly cut off by a curse as he begins his work.

Not long after, he’s finished and making sure the wound is all good. Gently, he moves your top back in place. You flinch at the uncomfortable, irritating burn the fabric creates. 

You turn to face him, and that’s when you notice the set of his jaw, tight - so tight you’re sure he’s grinding his teeth. His eyes are ablaze as he takes in the black eye already forming. “Did Ahmad take him?” he asks, voice cold. 

“Yeah,” you breathe.

He begins to move back, most likely to hunt the man down and pound him into the earth, but you grab his arm before he can leave. “Hey,” you say gently. “It’s handled. Don’t Hulk Out on me.”

He laughs dryly but stops trying to get away. He cradles your face to inspect the bruise. “I’ll order a CT Scan.”

“I don’t-” you start to argue, but his icy stare shuts you down. “Fine,” you huff, defeated.

Jack pats your knee. “Our shifts end in less than two hours. We’ll get your head checked out, and then you should go sit with Princess and Perlah until I can take you home. Scroll through Pinterest.” He pauses. “Scratch that, don’t strain your eyes. Just sit and gossip or something.”

You giggle. “Can we get Dunkin on the way home? I want my Strawberry Dragonfruit refresher”

He sighs. “Only if you let me try some.”

You wrinkle your nose. “Ew, cooties! Get your own, old man.”

Jack laughs, the tension melting from his shoulders. “You’re lucky I love you.”

[cosmicmunsonwrites]

mean!rafe slowly getting soft for reader but she realizes what sort of sick person he really is so she leaves him and now rafe is the desperate one (this would be really appreciated pretty!!!)

i loved, i loved, i loved you

mean!rafe cameron x desperate!fem!reader

cw — talks of murder, stalking, manipulation

summary — after overhearing a conversation between your boyfriend and his best friend, you begin to rethink your decisions.

authors note — can be read as a standalone but is apart of the mean!rafe series. part 1 is “i just wanna be one of your girls” and part 2 is “but i’ll do anything for you.” part 3 is up! “even when you pushed me away” i’ll probably make a masterlist for this cause it’s probably going to end up turning into a series tbh so lmk if i should do that! please request more!!

do not copy or post my work anywhere else.

“baby?” you heard him call out from the living room as the front door shut. he shrugged off his jacket and hung it up on the coat rack then followed the smell of food into the kitchen where you stood all pretty. you had a cute little pink sundress on, a white apron with a ribbon adorning the middle, and your hair was perfectly curled. “you look like a fucking dream.”

he walked over to where you were standing and pulled you into him with his big hands lightly squeezing at your hips. “thank you, rafe. i made your favorite,” you replied with a smile on your glossed lips as you rested your hands on his shoulders. “how was work?”

a sigh left his lips and his body tensed. “same thing as usual. nothin’ for you to worry your pretty little head about,” he said with a kiss to your temple. “i missed you, angel.”

you frowned slightly and hugged him. “i missed you too, rafe.” you nuzzled into his chest deeper and he held you close, taking in the delightful scent of your shampoo. you pulled away a little sooner than he would’ve liked and pulled out his designated chair at the table. “why don’t you eat before the food gets cold?”

he nodded and sat down, laying the napkin over his lap and unraveling one pack of utensils you spent your afternoon packaging up to look professional. you sat across from him in your own seat and waited for him to take his first bite before beginning to eat your own.

he wrapped up some of the noodles on his fork and placed it carefully into his mouth while you sucked in a breath and waited for his validation. “it’s amazing, sweetheart,” he praised while getting more onto his fork. “you always prepare the best, you know that.”

you smiled to yourself and glanced down at your own plate, a red blush spreading across your cheeks. you began to eat as you two sat in a comfortable silence and enjoyed the pasta.

once he finished and was getting ready to get up and place his dish in the sink, you stood and beat him to it. “i’ve got it,” you said softly. you knew how long and draining his work days were and you’d do anything to make the rest of his day better.

“thank you, angel,” he replied gratefully while standing and brushing past you with a loving squeeze to your hip. “i’ve gotta finish up some stuff on my laptop. i’ll be in my office if you need anything.”

you nodded and began to wash the dishes and clean up the kitchen. once you were all finished, you neatly folded your apron and placed it in the closet in the living room before heading up the stairs and to the office to see if he needed anything. before you could even knock, you heard a loud bang, which you assumed was his fist against his desk.

“goddamnit barry! i fuckin’ told you that i had it handled,” he spat into his phone. “i took care of him, alright? they got rid of the body, the evidence, all of it and now you’re over here screwing it up.”

the body? you placed a hand over your mouth to cover the sob threatening to slip past your lips. you pressed your ear closer to the door and waited for him to speak again.

you heard him curse under his breath and laugh angrily. “it was all going to plan and then—“ he paused. “get rid of him. do whatever you have to do, just fuckin’ get rid of him. i’ll do it myself if i have to.”

a tear hit your hand and you quickly backed away from the door and quietly walked into your shared bedroom. you immediately began throwing clothes into a bag until you heard the office door open. you shoved it under your bed and sat at the edge of it.

he came in and immediately made his way over to you, kneeling in front of you and holding your hands in his. “hey. what’s wrong, sweet girl?”

you just shook your head and faked a sad smile. “i jus’ miss you, rafe,” you lied as convincingly as you could.

he sighed. “i know, baby. and i’m sorry,” he mumbled softly. “look. i gotta go handle something really quick but we can spend the whole night together the moment i get back, ok? i promise.”

a shaky breath left your lips as you nodded and allowed him to kiss you then your forehead as he stood and made his way out towards the front door. the moment you heard it shut, you packed everything you could and sprinted out towards your car. you didn’t know how much time you had until he got back.

you were quick to disable your location on everything and turn on do not disturb before speeding off towards your parents house an hour away. you hoped it would be far enough and undisclosed so he’d never find you.

and only 30 minutes into the drive, you had 72 missed calls and 101 texts from rafe.